detailed

i notice detail more these days. there are moments where i look at the
world and think i haven't ever really noticed so much here before. i
did not do this when i was young. i look at the same things i did when
i was, say, a teenager, and i see more than i used to. there's a lot
there in the everyday. have you ever really looked at a wood surface
and seen all the detail and pattern there? it's amazing.

of course, there's the down side. sometimes i catch myself staring at
the iron work of a lamp post and realize i've lost five minutes. i do
this in the shower sometimes too, so i don't worry about it too much.
there are times when i get lost looking at something, and notice
nothing of what's going on around me. i wonder how much i've missed in
my life, how much detail was never noticed in all that i've seen and
experienced.

i like that i seem to be missing less than i used to. i wonder if it's
a perspective born of age. maybe. maybe not. after all, i know plenty
of folk older than myself who seem oblivious to everything.

ghost