i, and sister spikey mace would probably agree, might be the person who torments himself the most in this world. i have always held myself to a certain standard, an impossible standard i formed as a young boy from lessons taught me in sunday school. and in failing to live up to those standards, i've lashed out at God and heaped hatred upon myself. we're talking a lifetime of self loathing here, folks.
but, i've been considering this a lot this summer, now that my mind isn't being pulled a million different directions at once. and i think, maybe, just maybe, i should cut God, and myself, a break. when He stepped back from what He had created and saw that it was good, He meant it.
i still don't believe i'm worthy, but i am what i am, and i'm so damned tired of feeling like i need to apologize for it.
ghost
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